When I AM asked where I draw my strength from . . . My answer will always be from God and from this pretty lady right here #MommyDearest
God told me in the earlier stages of mommy’s Alzheimer’s disease that He would be my strength and He also reminded me that I draw my strength from the strong woman that birthed me and raised me and to this day carries a special place in my heart that only she can fill
At times I find myself drifting away in the thought of how I will feel once she’s no longer here to fill that space and unfortunately lately that time seems to be closer that I would like to think about or accept!
I try hard to replace those thoughts with something else immediately BUT most times I find that hard to do
I have been tremendously blessed to have both of my parents to live to be in their late 70’s .. the thought of losing her nearly makes me lose my breath and the very thought that the inevitable seems to be drawing nearer leaves me speechless!!!
I Want to, but …
I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to cuss
I want to run away
I want to ignore it
I want to hide under a rock
I want to… do anything other than come to grips with the fact that I Am losing pieces of her daily and even more rapidly in these last few weeks
I’m screaming God help
God Noooooo
But again I AM reminded of where my help comes from and even the more where my strength comes from each time that I pray and feel His comfort and each time that I walk into mommy’s room and she’s resting so peacefully as pictured…
I vowed to her, to God and to my family that as long as God gives me the strength she will be home . . . A facility isn’t an option …
With everything within me I AM going to stand strong and firm on my end of the bargain
God Thank You for your peace in the midst of an ongoing brewing storm
๐๐พGod, I Thank You๐๐พ
Thank You for never ever ever leaving me
Signed
Bessie’s Daughter
Her 2nd Born
The Pamtastic One that YOU choose to Strengthen daily to bare the inevitable
Alzheimer’s you suck but you want win . . . Even when mommy draws her last breath and I sigh a big sigh and probably cry a ugly cry,
God still wins and she still wins because she will be resting in the bosom of our Almighty God
God I Thank You
I don’t know how much time she has, none of us do . . .and I dare not try to count or number her days but God one of my many prayers is to allow me to be everything she needs me to be in each and every moment that you bless us to have together โค
To my readers . . . THANK YOU for sharing in my therapy, in my release. . . When I can’t find the strength to cry, I write it out. . . As long as I can get it out, all is well with my soul . . .
Beautiful! I will cry with you. I’m here.
thank you so much! I truly appreciate you ๐
Thank you for sharing your feelings. You can overcome this! Prayers
thank you so much …greatly appreciated …HE is my Strength! DAILY๐
Pam, I love this !! You are doing an AMAZING job taking care of your Mom !! As long as you want to do it, God will give you strength to do so !!
I will continue to pray for you and your Mommie dearest !! I know your Mom is proud and happy to have you taking care of her !!
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don’t know how I AM just seeing this … thank you so much pretty lady … I appreciate you tremendously๐๐๐
Yasss Queen, God never leaves us nor forsakes us, Heโs a Just God filled with so much grace and mercy๐๐พ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ Heโs a good who makes no mistakes. Continued Prayers for your strength and your motherโs comfort. Love you my Sista Friend. Always here for you๐๐ฝ๐๐ฝ๐๐ Much Love, Hugs and Purple kisses๐
Sarina, ALWAYS!!! Never ever leaves me ….thank you for your kind words … love you much sistafriend!!!๐๐๐๐
Beautiful tribute to your mom! You are an amazing daughter and woman of God. Prayers of peace and love for you and you sweet lady.
thank you Sherry! This is tough but God is my daily strength ๐๐๐๐